Anxious

I’ve been feeling anxious recently. Although I try not to talk about political things on my blog, I will mention some things today that are really stressing me out that may or may not have to do with politics.

I have a job as a contractor for a government agency. Since the change of administration a couple of weeks ago, there are certain things that our department can no longer do until it gets approved by a presidential appointee. 

We can barely do any of our tasks we need to right now. The thing is is I have no idea how long it will take to get the approval. Will it take another week, a few weeks, a couple of months? As of right now they are still paying us but how long will that last? If it doesn’t get approved soon, will they put us on unpaid leave until it gets approved or will they just fire us all? These are just a few of the concerns I have going through my head right now. 

I have been working on updating my resume and will start looking for a new job. Unfortunately that’s what the current administration would like us to do, become so worried about the status of our jobs that we start looking for other jobs and quitting on our own. Then they don’t have to fire us like he whowillnotbenamed would love to do to most of the government workers. You may not want to ask me how I feel about this unless you want to hear a few cuss words. 

I know things are a bit different for me as a contractor (as opposed to a regular government worker who I think have it harder) but it does still affect me and the other contractors. I really do not want to lose my job again. (I got laid off a few years ago when our project didn’t get a new grant to fund our work.) But we will see what happens in the next little while. Maybe our work will be approved next week and we’ll be able to work like normal again. We will see.

And I just want to say I don’t write all of this to start an argument about politics. I write this because this is my reality right now and I’m writing it for my own records.

And so my blogpost will have picture in it, here’s a cute picture of my brother’s cat, Ash.